I Need Money Now And I Feel Guilty

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For the past few weeks I have been able to get back to work again and I have been spending quite a long time just creating content, buying it, and creating websites. I realised that I need money now and I have to shift to the fifth gear to be able to make it. So that means endless hours sitting in front of the computer and pushing the social life to the back while I try to earn money. This means that I have not been spending too much time with my newly born goddaughter – my brothers child. I definitely wanted to spend more time but the fact that I simply am too busy trying to create a good income source is getting ahead of everything at the moment. Well she is just a week old so se won’t notice that I am not around yet, but the fact that I am completely neglecting my woman, who is by the way sitting on the sofa at the moment and watching some boring tv-shows waiting for me to join her.

The fact is that I have not been watching TV since I started internet marketing because I have been way too busy trying to make it happen. Also I have completely neglected her and I am surprised to see that she is still sticking up with me, even if I am not making any decent income yet. She seems to believe me when I say that this can be our ticket away from doing something we hate for the rest of our lives and it can free us from making money for someone else. Although I am the only one trying to make it happen – she is technologically challenged and if I tried to teach her what I have learnt it would take a lot of time. So for now I am working two jobs – my day job, and then the rest of the day online. She works her one job and tries to finish her degree while she is doing it. This results in me sitting on the computer and building websites every time we have some time together.

I don’t know about you who might be reading this but for me the uilt is killing me. If I would be making a decent income – enough to quit my day job and do all this work during the day while she is studying and working – I bet I would not feel that quitly. At the same time I would be making money and I could be sure that I had not been doing all this work for nothing and I could also teach all this to her and she could end up doing the very same thing that I do.

The fact that I am making some money on the internet which would really be helpful since we are both working very  low paying jobs does not really help because I am investing all that money back to internet marketing. I am spending every cent I earn online on services, domains, hosting and so on to be able to grow my business in to something that provides a full time income. If you are living with someone and are in the same situation as me – I need money now – you are most likely going through the same thoughts as me. Is it all worth it? Will I ever make it? Will my relationship hold through this? I believe in myself, and in the work I am doing and for my luck I think that so does she.

Now it is back to work!

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7 Responses to “I Need Money Now And I Feel Guilty”

    Get Paid Surveys Says:
    September 28th, 2009 at 8:20 pm

    Damn, talk about reading my mind!

    I am in the exact same situation as you man! I have a full-time job, which I recently started and am doing my Internet Marketing in my spare time – so YES, I do have two jobs. Also, I am GUILTY about my wife because when I come back from work I should be spending time with her, but eat then get in front of my laptop. My laptop is public enermy number 1 as far as she’s concerned.

    WE really do need to make money quickly and get back in the good books of our women!!!

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    Phil Reply:

    I think the worst part of this is that she is so acceptable when it comes to me trying to make it happen online – if I never make it I’ll let her down seriously. At first I remeber her complaining about the time that I spent doing this “second job”, but I quess when I started seeing some money she understood that this could become something good. Now it is just the time to start multiplying that amount that I get, until I can become my own boss. I am totally treating this as my business and I have made it clear to her that this is not a hobby, neither is it something that I prefer over her. There were times when she had to work two jobs for due to financial reasons and this is the same.

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    Broke Says:
    September 29th, 2009 at 2:43 am

    Hooray for having no woman and no job, lol!

    Look on the bright side, when you do create a self-sustaining online business you’ll be able to spend as much time with your family as you want! I hope you get there soon, so you won’t have to feel so guilty.

    Good luck and goodbye!

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    Phil Reply:

    “No woman no cry…”

    I hope your bum marketing pans out. Although I would build a few free hosted blogs on different niches at the same time – you are going to need them once you really star using self hosted sites. I would start four or five Niche sites with quite a general approach (health,finance,etc.) and update them at least weekly. It is not a big job but the work adds up, and when you start your first targeted niche site, you will have one powerful backlink to start with. Just don’t start them thinking you are going to make money off them.

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    Broke Reply:

    So you think I should start a kind of mini blog frm? I have to admit I’ve been toying with that idea lately. About how many posts would you say they should have? 5, 10, 20? Or just keep going with them weekly until they start accruing PR?

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    Phil Reply:

    I am not talking about a blog f**m(!!!) – no no no, that would be against google ToS ;) . But instead start a few very legitmate sites in a niche which you just keep on posting and acquiring backlinks, but slowly. Meaning post once or twice a week, and get a few backlinks on each post – ezine, infobarrell, hubpages etc. It is definitely not much work.

    Make them niche based but make the niche a very big one. So instead of targeting weight loss products for anorexic teenagers, you could target health supplements. That way when you one day decide to start that weight loss product niche site you can use your health supplement site to back it up with tons of juice. Try to get the sites indexed for as many keywords as possible but don’t get stuck worrying about your serp-ranking.

    With blogger and other free platforms it is not going to cost you anything, but I can assure that you are going to appreciate the sites when you roll your sleeves and start building sites. Building your own network is the one of the most important things you can do IMO. It is really frustrating to do it ass backwards if you know what I mean.

    Get Paid Surveys Says:
    September 30th, 2009 at 9:19 pm

    Definitely!

    As soon as I become financially free I will be able to spend much more time with my family!

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